I am the type of person who cannot control my mind to overthink. It is hard for me to tell my burden to anybody else. Usually, I will just cry myself and think of the worst. This is getting too real and lately been bugging me. I have been angry, selfish, furious and afraid at the same time. I did not know how should I work my sudden outburst. I am so emotional and irrational. This side of me shows my weakest points that I dont want somebody else to see. I hate having this kind of nights, it causes me extreme thoughts about not waking up from sleep.
It kinda reflect my life. Been always the awkward addition to a happy twosome. Except the part that today I have my quirky bestfriend that I hope will never last. 🙂
It has been three years and I finally broke my bonds with my best friend. This best friend concept is something some of us can do without. I went through school looking at others pairing up and for some reason we were always odd numbered in class. So that meant one person got left out and had to be painfully injected into a happy twosome to create an awkward trio.
That was me. I was also that kid that you didn’t want on your softball team because from the looks of it I wasn’t much good for anything. Truth is, I could pulp the shit out of that ball with the maiden strike. The kids didn’t know. They were stuck with me and started rolling their eyes and kicking the dirt when it was finally my turn.
Kids like that don’t have best friends. Kids like that, like me, hardly…
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I have always been wearing jeans and shirts for most of the times i’ve been out so i think i might try to wear a skirt for a friend’s debut. Hence, i tried. Hooray for my first post!